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Sweden Sweetheart
He lived on the other side of the globe but we clicked so incredibly well and we were convinced we were going to wait for each other. He got in a relationship and I was happy for him. We lost contact. They broke up, we got back in contact. He liked someone else, I was happy for him. They didn't work out so we got back in contact. He left me just because. He came back so lustful and began guilt-tripping me into things. I didn't care and didn't realize because I love/d him. Then he told me he was still in love with his ex and that's when I cut things off. As Conan gray sai, I can't be his lover on a leash. He knows I'll wait for him so whenever he's lonely he comes back to me. And then he took advantage of my past experiences and managed to manipulate me into doing things. Worst part is that I still love him, still know the time difference, never realized how manipulative he was, still just see him as a sweet boy who was mistreated, still miss calling him every single night. He's so awful for me but I love him so dearly
i had to leave him
he cheated on me twice and then begged me to stay or he would go back to his old habits again. I needed to put myself first so it was very hard leaving someone i made a difference in their lives. i wish he didnt do what he did while he was drunk cuz now i feel pretty bad n guilty for leaving him😕. i forgave him the first time but the second time needs to cut the straw. im so sorry.
Badly hurt
23 month relationship ended, started off fun with lots of communication, I was her only boyfriend who had the courage to meet her family and spend time with them, I was very open minded and accepting, we had breakups a couple times (nothing serious), Throughout the relationship I would give her gifts and make lots of effort in working on myself to make her happy, What I asked for in return i never got, She said she will now work on herself and do what i wanted from her in the beginning, but not for me, I truly did everything i could but now I’m left feeling terrible and as if i wasted my time, when we met she was in a really bad place with addiction in which i helped her get out of and truly experience happiness, but now that she is doing better she left me?
5 months down the drain :/
We didn’t even date… He pursed me FIRST. I guess this is the classic tale of our generation with dating. I feel pathetic. He told me that he likes me, but he didn’t know if he could ever love me. We spent 5 months building a foundation and led me to think that we were going to date eventually. There was no build up as to how he magically woke up one day and decided to end things. It’s only been 4 days but it still feels heavy. I’ve gotten my heart broken so many times in the past and I really thought this was going to be different. I told him this is what I was scared of, and he still managed to string me along. I’m just not sure how to stop expecting a message from him. I blocked him on everything once he ended things with me, out of respect for myself, but he still has my phone number accessible, and I just don’t know if it’s silly to expect him to reach out. Mind you, we had built a routine of talking everyday, hanging out every week, falling asleep every night on the phone together. And in just 4 days my nervous system has just been all over the place. :( I just feel numb and don’t know what to do.
Been heavy lately
It’s been bitter sweet since my ex husband left me. There are some days I miss him some days I’m happy he is gone. If only he knew how much I miss him and loved him. I miss having a companion and having a family but a lot of my family and friends say this is the best thing that happen to me that I’m free. But I feel so empty, he said leaving me was the best thing he did that he doesn’t have any responsibilities. I just really hope one day I can be happy again and start a new family again. Holidays are going to be tough not having my oldest and now my family is broken. I don’t wish this on my worse enemy.
Night time eats me alive.
Hey, I’m still really down about my break up and I cannot believe it’s been 90 days since then.. Why can’t I move on? Why do I still so badly want to speak to him? Also, I failed my driving test which just added on more disappointment in myself. I wish I was better in anyway but idk if I am. I mean I had my first shift yesterday and I started intensive therapy like 4 days ago, it’s good, but I just feel so annoying only talking about him who engulfs my brain or my depression or OCD that makes it so hard to have “normal” thoughts and finally, I feel bad for wanting to be with some who when I speak of he gets deemed as the “toxic ex-boyfriend” it just hurt even more and I don’t know what to do anymore
Feeling lonely
He was my first love, we did everything for the first time together. He told me the other day he was unhappy and wanted out (blamed his parents and friends). I miss him so much, I have hopes for the future but he says he honestly doesn’t think we’re made for each other. My friends are here for me but I don’t want them, I want him.
Mentally tired
me and my ex broke up like two weeks ago and i’m so lost i don’t know who to trust of talk to.
Lost soul
I don’t know what to do anymore because i’m so lost. I miss him and i just can’t do it anymore. I can’t reach out because i blocked him and every one says to be done but no one knows how hard it is to be done with someone u planned on being with for a while. He made me happy. I loved him and i love when i was with him but i’m lost now and i don’t want to date anymore because i’m always the one who gets hurt all the time because i give people chance after chance to change and they never do. I hate this feeling i’ve been having missing him and wanting to talk to him sucks. i don’t want him again but i do miss him and it’s embarrassing to even say that. every one of my friends says he treated u like shit but it wasn’t all him it was me too. we both did. I don’t know what to do anymore i’m losing myself again and i just don’t want to be around anyone anymore. It’s definitely not easy moving on at all. I thought we were finally in a good space and doing good. then we started fighting and then it just went downhill from there. i want to cry every day. but i don’t because i’m strong and i know crying is good but i just don’t know anymore. it’s so embarrassing twllinf ur friends u miss someone who doesn’t even care about you. he made me feel like i was doing something wrong all the time. idk
Trying to find myself while dealing with a break up.
i and my ex were on and off for a long time. I feel hurt and i’m sad that we couldn’t work it out together because i really do love him and i really do miss him and i don’t think he will ever come back because i feel like i just messed it all up. it’s really hard trying to choose yourself after a break up when all i want to do is text him and at least try to talk. I don’t know now i have to start over with someone new. I’m not ready for a relationship and i don’t know when i will be ready for one. I’m so lost and depressed right now. i have no energy for anything anymore. i don’t think anyone understands how i feel. I want to text him every day but i can’t because i kmow i deserve better then that but it’s hard.
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