Sweden Sweetheart

He lived on the other side of the globe but we clicked so incredibly well and we were convinced we were going to wait for each other. He got in a relationship and I was happy for him. We lost contact. They broke up, we got back in contact. He liked someone else, I was happy for him. They didn't work out so we got back in contact. He left me just because. He came back so lustful and began guilt-tripping me into things. I didn't care and didn't realize because I love/d him. Then he told me he was still in love with his ex and that's when I cut things off. As Conan gray sai, I can't be his lover on a leash. He knows I'll wait for him so whenever he's lonely he comes back to me. And then he took advantage of my past experiences and managed to manipulate me into doing things. Worst part is that I still love him, still know the time difference, never realized how manipulative he was, still just see him as a sweet boy who was mistreated, still miss calling him every single night. He's so awful for me but I love him so dearly