Been heavy lately

It’s been bitter sweet since my ex husband left me. There are some days I miss him some days I’m happy he is gone. If only he knew how much I miss him and loved him. I miss having a companion and having a family but a lot of my family and friends say this is the best thing that happen to me that I’m free. But I feel so empty, he said leaving me was the best thing he did that he doesn’t have any responsibilities. I just really hope one day I can be happy again and start a new family again. Holidays are going to be tough not having my oldest and now my family is broken. I don’t wish this on my worse enemy.