u can judge lol

i’m really avoidant so it explains the dynamic between me and my ex, adam. We meet in a game called among us 7 months ago and i blocked him on the first day then we found each other again and kept talking after that we met another girl and we became a trio after that we had made many gc in tt or an dc it was fun he was flirting w me only and we both fell in love after that we ended up in a situationship i did severe mistakes as in called another men my obsession and self sabotaged the relationship often with lies or leaving him this lead to him being hurt and i also lied about my whole life and it was severe i lied about having a coma or that i relapse often genuinely lied about ANYTHING either ways i told him and he stayed wtv this went on for 7 months until we finally were in a relationship and that ended up toxic cause i’m avoidant and he’s anxious i tried breaking up but would always go back to adam he was really sweet he is also from egypt so we had a long distance relationship with 12 hours distance we talked every day and whatsoever it went to a point that i even missed school cause we fought and i lost friends over it the lies didn’t stop i still lied about some stuff and he doesn’t know after all we would be on off and this time it was about control again he was basically always making me feel guilty about normal stuff such as talking to makes or clothes shows or books and i was jealous too in that way but not that severe hence i broke up w him and made a fake account which is my ex and basically there’s a lot of drama but it’s genuinely js me lying either ways he told me he is done too and wtv so it’s really done this time and for the first time i’m actually crying cause i used to fill this void which i did this time too but it’s different i deleted apps and i’m mostly crying or grieving and i hate it but i’m glad cause this is a part of moving on he also told me he broke promises and went to lust which breaks me but i wasn’t better he also doesn’t know that but ya that’s the situation i need to get out this depression tho it hurts