Ex

. I’m a very nice and forgiving person but I know I had made big mistakes. Me and my ex started dating April 2024 . We broke up at 11 months in because I coudnt handle the fact he would watch other girls and jerk off to them. Or look at girls asses infront me. This made me very insecure and made me want to go to the gym made me hate my self I would always be crying begging him to change and i remember one time he even laughed at me. I felt like it was such a bug thing bc we would have yk and he had pictures of me yet he would look at girls with big sss and curves. After that we where on and off bc I didn’t want to be with him if he was going to do that and I would take him bc he said he’d change for me but I would always find stuff. On TikTok, YouTube, TikTok shop, safari. He would get better at hiding stuff and honestly I hated that so much. He even called me flat one day and my boobs arnt big enough. At thag time I took it very very deeply since I already hated my body from what he would do. I remember his cousin would also bring her friends over to his house the whole year we was tg to just be there bc she gets along with his mom. But he just never told me abt this until his sister told me and he had told her not to tell me. I didn’t think much of it until I went through his phone and he texted his cousin that we broke up and she said dw u still got genisis . And he had told her give me her number and tell her I said good night. He then said it was a joke. After all that around June 2025 I had talked to another boy and I felt really guilty so I told him. After that we was never the same. He stopped begging he stopped trying and i understood him. And ever since then we would just see eachother in the low we wasn’t even tg. We would do what we would always do but just not tg. And at some point we stopped seeing eachother for 3 months. And now I want to just stop this.