breakup.

hey guys. so me and my ex dated for 2 years, and been in love with each other since 7th grade. on monday i found out he cheated on me. he had told me and my mom he didnt know the girl. tuesday comes around & the girls friend texted me asking me to take his name out of my bio. i asked her why, she makes a gc with the girl. Abbi. she begins to tell me her and my ex had been talking for 3 weeks, she sends me ss. they had hung out, and were touchy. he even sajd i love you in 3 weeks. i texted the ss to him and asked him to never speak to me again. to this girl he cheated with I was just the crazy ex from 5th and 7th grade that wanted him back. his excuse to me was that the whole time he was texting her he was pretending it was me. and that we were fighting a lot and wasnt feeling appreciated and loved. the whole relationship was toxic to everyone else, and me at some points. we couldnt go a week without over 5 arguments a day. i wasnt allowed to wear what i want, be around my friends. i know it was toxic but he keeps reposting tiktoks about me. and i miss him but i have to come to terms that what he did wasnt ok. and it’s unforgivable because i wouldnt have ever done that to him.