Support please

We broke ip, i was secret. I gave him support while he was divorcing because we were friends but we fell in love. I gave him support my time and even worked for him because i wanted him to have profit as much as possible and i was very good at selling. I even put on the second plan my work, life everything. I gave everything. He decide to come back to his wife. I accepted to be no.2 even though it is painful just because it is so hard without him. He told me he will cut the contact because it is good for both. I called him to today and he still is with his decision. I am devastated. I am very successful at my job, look very attractive but i want him. I want to get over him, and survive