Venting

I had been with this guys for 7 years. We were practically living together at one point and had a healthy relationship. We had to move to a different city for our professional growth for some time, there was no other way to do so while being in the same city. The 1st month it was good we talked almost every day unless something came up and texted all the time. The 2nd month both our schedules were packed and we had different availability plus there was a time zone difference. We still try staying in contact but it was hard. I was concern about this and though we could talk about it when we saw each other (we were supposed to meet soon). However, right as I was getting ready for a big event in my career he broke up with me over text. we spoke on the phone later and he was crying and saying it will be the best for us in the long run. We ended up meeting in person and talking about but I had to insist for this to happen. There were some things I had to say and I wanted that to be in person. He then said we should meet again after a month when we were both going to be in the same city due to personal reasons. After this meeting he texted me at one point during the holidays to said he missed me and loved me. When the time for the second meeting came up there was an issue with his job and he couldn’t go there but he didn’t tell me about it until I asked. He said he really believed we should just move on. He made comments that made it seem like he was also having a hard time but I told him at this point I also didn’t feel like I could be with him considering his treatment in the last month. He refused to talk about how he felt and just kept saying it was best for both of us and that he wouldn’t be able to give me the things I want and deserve because of how demanding his job is. (Just to give context he has a very sheltered life. Didn’t struggle a lot and never had to handle more than 2-3 responds at the same time.) He said to stay in contact but blocked me in a matter of second after having regular communication with me for weeks. I feel like I was blindsided and like he didn’t respect me enough to act more mature about the whole situation. I honestly didn’t even have time to react. Needless to say it affected my professional and daily life as I was under so much stress I started having anxiety attacks and insomnia. I am in a better place and things are getting better but I still feel stuck. He recently unfollowed me on instagram, like 4-5 months after the break up. We had not been in contact for more than 3 months at that point and neither of us uses instagram to post things. Mostly use it to share memes and such. Which just reopened a lot of wound for me that I was working hard to heal from. This is just me venting because I honestly feel like my family and friends are tired of this whole topic and I just need to put it somewhere to let it go and stop overthinking about it.