We are not compatible, but I miss you.

I feel like letting it out here would let go so much of how I am feeling right now. I feel so overwhelmed, I love you so so much. But we were so toxic. We fight everyday, but i don't want to let go even how much we have broken up and said stuff. It feels like we will get back together again, but at the same time I feel empty, hopeless and missing you. It's fresh, i remember you told me never reach out and youd just block me.. it's hurtful, it is something i want to do for you, you seem like you're suffering. At the same time, it would make me very very sad if I see you with another woman, I won't be ready for that any time soon. Which i hope u won't be I don't wanna be evil but it's to keep my self sane. I miss u so much, I don't want u back but it hurts a lot that we aren't together and even how much we tried we wouldn't work out.