Almost one year

we almost made it to one year. i spent so much time, literally over a days worth of hours recording me reading a book for them, for our anniversary gift. i thought things would change but they didn’t. they’re a workaholic and it’s just not gonna stop. it’s unfortunate because i still love care and cherish them. i miss them so fucking much, yet we’ve had barely no contact for four months. idk why it’s taking this long to hit me, but here i am ig. im sorry if u see this, but i think you’re too busy to have time to process this or come to something like this anyway. It my first relationship like this and it hurts so bad and i feel numb. i hate it.