Betrayal

I was with a guy that I loved very deeply. We broke up yesterday. He left me. He was everything I wanted in the beginning of our relationship. When we first got together 10 months ago he was so good to me his communication was consistent he was affectionate caring and just everything I wanted. He owns his own business and lives 2 hours from me so he is very busy. After about 5 months his great uncle died and he was very very upset about it so I did my very best to comfort him and after that bad things just kept happening to him like wrongfully going to jail, his grandpa getting cancer and more. He began pulling away from me little by little. His replies got shorter and he took longer to answer and stopped seeing me as much. It didn’t take me long to realize he wasn’t good with talking about his feelings and he was extremely emotionally unintelligent and unavailable. I asked him so many times to call me more or just send a few more texts checking in just so I knew he loved me cause I overthink a lot and have bad anxiety. For a while he made an effort and changed. Then he stopped and the whole time I was being neglected I was nothing but nice. What was really confusing was when I would see him in person he was so loving and nice to me and then he’d leave and his communication would just suck. These past two weeks were tearing me apart he would barely speak to me dodge saying I love you back avoid talking about why he was acting this way and then last night he sent a text saying he still really liked me but it wasn’t fair to me that he was putting his business before me and it would be best if we just parted ways. He also said he still loves me and maybe down the road we could try again. I wish he had never said those two things if it’s over I just wanna move on but all I can think about is how he still loves me apparently but couldn’t give me what I wanted. I blocked him on everything. Everything I see reminds me of him. I thought he was going to be my husband. He would reassure me so much before this saying he will never leave and he wants me forever we would always talk about our future. And he just threw me away like I was nothing. I know what I have to do and that’s heal and never take him back. I don’t really know what I’m looking for from sharing this maybe someone who can relate? If you’ve made it this far thank you for reading. I am so hurt.