I don’t really have any resources because I’ve only been separated from my ex for 2 days but I need feedback and support so here’s a picture of a cute cat. I guess I’ll start by saying the break up was her idea but I am the reason it happened. Me and my ex were only together for 4 months but I those four months I felt real genuine love for the first time. It was amazing but I’ve got a lot of mental health issues caused by trauma among other things which makes it impossible for me to love myself therefore it made it impossible for me to love her in a healthy way. I never laid a hand on her and always respected her to my fullest ability and tried my absolute best to treat her right I’m just not at a place where I can do that right now. I was however emotionally abusive and manipulative because that’s what I was raised around. I never intended to be or tried to be it was just a subconscious thing that I couldn’t control because it showed in the ways I reacted to things. I was staying with her up and her grandparents until the break up. I’m only really posting this to see if there is anything I can do to be better in the future or get some support.