My first love.

So basically me and him were on and off from october all the way til june our last and final time being together was from may 21 to june 21 and i put all my heart and soul and tears into that relationship i tried so hard to get him to be good to me because it was clear he loved me but he wasn’t in love with me like i was in love with him in the end we both agreed we just needed to stop getting back together and we don’t have that same spark. but i always always ALWAYS felt a spark with him i loved him so much he was my first love and i can’t get over him i never have when we broke up the first second third fourth fifth and finally the sixth time every single time i still knew i loved him. but he didn’t love me. we haven’t talked in 15 days but we have school on august 8th and im scared ill see him and instantly just like fall back in love the type of love you get butterflies when you talk to them and knees get weak and you get that look. i don’t think ill ever be fully over him.