Stuck in pain.

It’s only been 3 weeks since our breakup and my ex is living the high life. He went on a holiday to Mykonos and posting it all over social media how happy and carefree he is, as if I never existed or meant anything. He’s going from beach to beach partying and enjoying his time and freedom whilst I’m stuck in the hurt and pain of having to walk away when I felt like my emotional needs weren’t being met. Sometimes I doubt myself like did I make the right decision to walk away that day, what would the outcome have been if we stayed together. I’m definitely feeling the grief more now I’ve seen him moving on so publicly on social media feels like our relationship wasn’t even real that I made it up in my head because he’s unfazed . And it’s now like I’m addicted at looking at his social media and seeing if he still cares and analysing his captions and hashtags. It’s only been 3 weeks and is still fresh. Being getting heart palpitations l, lost my appetite, feel sick and anxious, I keep getting brain fog forgetting things. I hope that I can finally heal and not feel this pain anymore.