Letting go!

I knew a girl who in the end was a dismissive avoidant and I’ve known her for 3 years when she needed help understanding court duty! It was random how I helped her! Because after we both started to talk non stop! Fast forward January 1st we finally became a couple! But there was so much hurt in the relationship! Her avoidant attachment made it hard for me to love her! Every time I would get close she founds ways to push away! And it hurts to see her go! We broke up a month ago November! Her telling me she didn’t feel the same and didn’t want a future with me hurt me! Even if we dated for 10 months it felt like those 3 years I dated her and took a lot of my time too understand her for her flaws how she felt! Yet she gave up and avoided any conflict or deep conversations to try to fix the relationship and most of the time she would trigger me. I’ve been hurting but at the same time healing! Learning to love myself! And understanding this person needs to heal first and become emotionally available for herself! I wish her the best! I remember the good times and it hurts remember what we had! But healing will help me become the best version of myself!