My struggles

I'm currently struggling with having no contact with my ex.... I've been trying to reach out to him but when I do he doesn't answer my texts or calls It's been a month since he broke up with me it's complicated but somehow I still want to go back with him in the future will 1 am hoping for....but lately ik and i understand that me and my ex aren't together anymore totally understand..i can't to talk to my ex anymore cuz he practically told my mom that he doesn't want to see my face or anything to do with me anymore...and that he changed the lock of his house so I couldn't go back to his house he let me keep the key to his house and it's sad bcuz he told me that it was fine if I left afew things for mine to keep something there and I had a goal in mind to go back at some point in future but packed my things in a box for me meaning he lied about it but I’m still in love with him that this breakup has gotten my health bad not wanting to eat cuz it makes me throw up and depression stress and anxiety I get too that I wished he knew what he had done to me but doesn’t even answer my calls texts or anything blocked me mostly everywhere I had him on so yea idk what to do at this point my family against me telling me am stupid blame me from my disability and I’m good at nothing my family are stopping me from moving on like shutting the doors for me like wanting to drive that’s my main goal but they don’t want to idk why