Hurt

I forgave this man for so much, he cheated on me twice and I still forgave him. He blamed my 5 year old for all our arguments because she’s ‘spoilt’ but she just doesn’t like him. (Red flag- she loves everyone) she is vile to him I’ve seen her spit kick punch and throw things at him which she has never done to me! He still lives with us as he has nowhere to go. I got him a dog when he first moved in nearly a year ago and he won’t take the dog with him. More stress. Found out I was pregnant and he went nuts in a bad way. Said he’d rather k*ll himself than have a baby with me- infront of my daughter on her 5th birthday last week. Not keeping the baby if that wasn’t clear. I am so stupid for still loving him, I’ve been sobbing for days and he doesn’t seem to care. After all I’ve done I’ve been nothing but good to him minus some arguments and bad reactions to his obvious infidelity. My question is Why do I love someone who is just disgusting? Why do I think so little of myself to allow this behaviour? Why am I jeopardising how my daughter sees me in the future for allowing this man to continue be having this way in my house? Why do I love a scumbag?