Hopeless

This is the hardest thing I’ve ever gone through. Something about the dynamic between me and him has made this the hardest relationship to let go of. I truly don’t know how to accept it. But it’s clear it will never work… he is never coming back and I have no control over it. You can’t make someone love you. I’m day 3 no contact now, after a humiliating begging session…. I am also 2 1/2 months post break up and still feel as completely crushed as day 1… this is insane.