April 2025

We actually broke up in the end of may. She has already been deceiving me for months and now it’s been two months since we broke up. She broke up with me when i found out from someone else that she’s been lying to me about other people and what she has been doing. She’s always been lying about something but i couldn’t help but still love her and love the moments she gave me. She was my best friend and lover. I poured everything into her and she left me in the dust. She kept telling me that she found someone cute and then now she likes someone else. She has a crush on him but she still wants to be special in my life, or be the only girl i love or choose . I went through the worst time in april, my body was traumatized and i couldn’t do anything. The worst part was that i didn’t feel depressed, i felt everything. I slept and woke up with the heaviest heart everyday. I had no one to talk to and i still can’t help but feel the sting in my chest. Today i told her that if it brings her peace of mind that leave, that i will. But she said she doesn’t want that and she can be normal with me. She gets mad when she thinks there is someone else but tells me she has nothing for me anymore, no love, just a form of respect left. But when something rubs off on her even a bit; she blows up on me tells me the craziest things and then she tells me that the guy asked her on a date or that he likes her back. It still makes my heart sting even after all i’ve been through. The only reassurance i have is that i survived last month and it isn’t as bad. I don’t know what to do because i don’t want to let her go. Please help.