Embracing life

Today I had a date, not a date-date, but I met a girl in a queue while waiting for appointment with my oncologist. We were talking, then had a coffee. She mentioned she liked me, asked me if I’m single and asked me out. I said she’s lovely but it’s wrong time as I’m still getting over painful break up and undergoing cancer treatment, and then she said she’s her diagnosis, triple negative breast cancer, she is terminally ill, but it doesn’t stop her from taking the most out of time she still has. To say it hit me hard is nothing. I’ve suddenly realised I was thinking I can’t go over a guy I was in serious relationship with, whom I had to plead to take me on a normal proper date 🤦🏼‍♀️ A complete stranger (beautiful, heartwarming, positive and adorable lady) in few hours taught me more about myself then I could ever imagine. I will remember her I think till the rest of my life, I will clearly remember her every time someone will fail to show up for me, or being there for me, or not making an effort. I mean every one knows that those who want are looking for opportunities and those who don’t are looking for excuses. I feel like I don’t care at all anymore about my ex 🥳