Please give me advice🙏

I met this guy about 9-10 months ago threw my ex but didn’t talk until the 18th of march and started developing a really strong connection and realizing how much we liked each other we would hang out and talk everyday sometimes even FaceTime but recently about a week ago we went to a party and I had a bit too much to drink and as expected got drunk and started throwing up in front of him my parents picked me up and the next day I got grounded for drinking we would still talk but it was like everything changed he said I was the one changing but I noticed it was him until the 21st of this month he told me that he really wanted to be with me but wasn’t in the right position to be in a relationship and that he was insecure about his future and needed time to think about his studies and make his mom happy and how his mom wasn’t so supportive of him being with someone younger and how he wanted to avoid anymore problems with his mother and how he wanted me to know that he loves me and that he’s always going to be there for me but I still don’t believe that’s the reason he left please give me your option