Personality disorder

recently went through a very painful breakup with my partner, who has been diagnosed with paranoid personality disorder (PPD). Throughout our relationship, I always tried to be understanding and supportive, but it was incredibly challenging. He often reacted to situations with mistrust, anger, and accusations, which made open communication very difficult. I admit I made mistakes, including lying to him a few times, which caused him to withdraw emotionally.This dynamic was present throughout our entire relationship. He would often put me down, seek out conflict, and insist on being right, even at my expense. I tried to fix things by giving even more of myself, but this led to me neglecting my own needs and feeling drained. In the end, I started standing up for myself, which he didn’t take well. He began to accuse me of sabotaging the relationship and blamed me for everything going wrong. I’m struggling to accept how things ended, especially knowing that he now likely resents me. I still care for him deeply, but I also realize that our dynamic became toxic for both of us. I feel torn between sadness, guilt, and the need to heal.