my story please read i need help

me and my boyfriend got together in july 2024 but we were best friends before that. i felt like i could tell him anything but i always had feelings for him. when we got together things were so good. he was my person. the only issue was my parents hated him. i didnt care tho. i went against them so many times just to be with him and he knows that. in October he started to get distant and i confronted him about it and he brushed it off. because i loved him i let it go but then it got to a point where we didnt speak at all. we had an argument and i ended up breaking up with him. i instantly regretted it and messaged him about how much i wanted it to work. he messaged my friend and told her he still lived me but he just had stuff going on in his life which he needed to focus on. At this point we were still in contact. He then blocked me on snap and i messaged him on imessage and we had another argument but two hours layer he came back and apologised. Ever since then we have been speaking once a month and he comes back to give me hope but then leaves again. its like he wants to check im still attached to him and idk what to do bcs i still love him. please support me