I miss him!

It’s been 80 days of our breakup and i guess 3 days of non speaking. We decided to not be in contact but we kept on breaking it. I don’t want to break it this time around but i miss him so much 😭. He broke things with me after he found out i had a one night stand( had oral sex with someone). He healed while i thought we’re fixing things and in the end he broke things when i thought we’re doing okay! He moved on and i wish he’s been treated better there but i want him, i need him, he’s the only thing i think about 😭. My soul yearns for him, i regret my actions so much. I ruined a good things going, we could be doing much better now. I know i’m in no position to be crying as it’s my own actions that got us here, but i need him to forgive and come back. Even if things don’t go well in the beginning , i’m willing to start over gaining his trust and love. I have learned my lesson.