I was in a abusive relationship with this boy for a year I truly loved him with everything in me I know I shouldn’t have stayed with him but I couldn’t leave him we’ve been broken up and no contact for almost a year now. I feel like I can’t move on we’ve blocked eatchother on everything but I still get upset constantly I feel like no matter what I do he’s always on my mind
Not sure how best to help you, but just know that I felt the same way about my first gf. I remember being so enamored with her that I didn’t date for 3 years after our breakup, cause I kept myself in a fantasy world thinking she would come back and contact me. But I was using her memory as a crutch to keep myself from having to be vulnerable again and potentially get rejected. Don’t make the same mistake I did, use your time wisely!!
If you don’t mind me asking, what is it that you go back to? What do you think about? Are they good memories or harder ones?
Let yourself feel the negative feelings and grief. It’s valid too. Those feelings can be even more intense after abuse. Make a list of reasons you ended it, and make another list of the ways he abused you. Refer to those when you feel stuck on the good memories only. Wishing you the best 💕 you can do it
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