No contact

both 71 🔄,first serious relationship on both sides, lasted 11 months, mostly eachothers first time for everything, she broke up with me 9 days ago, i promised i would change something but i didnt change it which led her to leaving me, she said she finally wont stress anymore, wont go to sleep sad etc. She said she needs AT LEAST 6 months before she starts dating anyone again, she kept my stuff so she wont forget about me, clothes, plushies, gifts, i promised i would wait for her because i dont want to look for love with anyone else, i wanted a future with her, she said she cant promise me anything about us trying again, she did say this “I hope, that maybe in the future we fund eachother again and try again” ive been having alot of thoughts about this, her instagram is also “You cant re read a book and expect a different ending” idk if shes giving me false hope or not, she said she isnt but it could just be that shes doing it for me. Im blocked on snapchat and instagram, maybe my phonenumber but im not sure, i think im not but like i said im not sure, im not blocked on tiktok though, idk why. I want to stop checking her socials every 30 minutes and having these thoughts and “what ifs” i know it would destroy me if some of them came to reality but where do i start and how?