Venting

She was my first girlfriend, first one I felt comfortable with to explore and even show the world too. I don’t think she realized the risk I took alone with just letting her inside with my vulnerability in that area . Simply just being hurt before coming out of a toxic relationship previously. I thought I healed from , however I learned she helped trigger alot of those old wounds as well as I allowed her too and myself . I can’t believe how foolish I was for love from her and the things I allowed . Things Ik others wouldn’t even had room to do. Some how I kept trying and searching because if I seen the good in her . In what we had 2 days no contact and I doubt we ever talk again and I’m learning to be okay with that . I refused too let another person hurt me again .