Idk what to feel

I recently got dumped and i didn’t take it well, this pass month i notice he was different acting different timed me on how long we can hold each other and kiss each other which he claimed it was for his religion and thats why. Still supper weird and random we did that the whole time dating with no timer, but my relationship wasnt the greatest entertained many women also cheated and i stayed thinking i loved this man and he wouldn’t ever break up with me and he did even though I let him do whatever, I just really wanted him to stay even though ik it not the best for me I just hope to get through this.