Horrible evenings.

IThe evenings are the hardest, I can’t sleep because of the loneliness, memories and heavy heart with sadness, getting myself crying every single night asking the same questions to myself like “ how can he say he loved me and treated me so good but avoid me as if I didn’t matter to him, I overthink and get so anxious, angry and annoyed and eventually just lay in bed cries just because of the idea of my lovey is not laying next to me and my thoughts just go crazy. He didn’t choose me because I pushed alot of pressure on him for him to succeed and help me provide in the house and fights or stand up for me when he’s family was say very rude and hurtful things to me or about me. He already moved on like was I this easy to forget, because he rather choose a girl he knows for 2 weeks than coming back by and communicate (this was a problem/ jealousy) I miss him so much. Please advise me because I can’t be sad and angry everyday I feel so miserable and lost and could he reLly just move forward and hurt me lijw this