Pls give me some advice

my boyfriend and i have been together for a little over 2 years our relationship was so good in the beginning and we were both so in love then i found out he cheated on me and a lot changed i have fought him lying to me and lusting over girls so many times i cried in his arms about how badly he hurt me and he promised he would change but then did it again this hurt me so much and it made me such an angry person all the time we always fight over things because i can’t trust him no matter how hard i tried to i just couldn’t do it because i was too jealous and worried i have become so insecure about myself and i lost a lot of my friends he is the only person i talk to and i still love him so much despite everything he did a few months later i haven’t fought him doing anything bad but it just feels like he doesn’t care about me as much and i don’t feel like im getting treated how i wanted to be treated so i told him that and he ghosted me then i ended up going to his house and we were on good terms again but then we got into a huge argument a few days ago and he hasn’t responded to me for 5 days i can’t stop crying because i told him i wanted to end things because i wasn’t happy with how i was being treated but now i regret it and im so sad but i told him and he won’t even respond i genuinely don’t know what to do i love him so much.