I was ready to change

I was ready to change for him beacuse I understood what all both of us did.But he lost faith and he can never trust me like he did. But how can he forget all those memories we had together we have beeen dating for years. Yes I hurt him but I genuinely loved him what about the love and loyalty??we talked about all of it and settled them several times both of us did mistakes but now I’m the only one being portrayed as the bad character..and it’s hurting me more..why can’t he just trust me??what if I really changed ..as days pass I’m starting to love him more rather than just moving but I know it’s never going to happen again because he genuinely hates me now..that one night ruined things..