We Separated yesterday

A 3 year off an on relationship with this guy, he would break up with me only to come back to me. Even when we weren’t talking I still had feelings for him, and apparently he did too although he did nothing to show it. I also found out that he was dating someone else while he was talking to me and I allowed it although I knew that I wasn’t the priority, he would take her out to do things with her, introduced his now ex friends to her. He never did any of that with me. Although he thought I forgot about him telling me he dating someone else, I never did. After they broke up, he said that he wanted to be with me, and I thought things would be better but it only got worse. We used to talk often but randomly one day that communication decreased, from days to weeks and eventually a month, we’d go from talking almost everyday to talking one or twice a month. He would still reach out to me saying he likes me and wants to be with me, then another month saying he doesn’t want a relationship because his last one was “too much”. Then would reach out to me again and talk. Recently we both talked about our feelings again, he said that he thought I didn’t wanna talk to him again because we doing talk often, or he thought I didn’t like him anymore. I said I did but I said it’s inconsistency and laziness but didn’t I didn’t specify more about that. Then yesterday he unfollowed me, I asked why and he said that “idk rn about me and you, I still like you it’s just me rn tbh” “I thought that you didn’t wanna talk again because there’s nothing we can really talk about anymore” and that “it’s not your fault it’s just how it is sometimes and it’s okay” . I told him the reason why I’m talking less to him and suppressing my feelings is because he doesn’t show that he likes me and that we can’t just rely on textual communication to talk, if he did stuff with me then things would probably be different, he acknowledged that and said that’s it’s his issue and he is sorry and that he gets why I’ve been distant but doesn’t want to do anything about it and just essentially wants me to stay distant because he “doesn’t want to hurt me or anything” once he asked me if I still wanted something (as in being together) I said I do (although I know what answer I’ll get) then I asked him, he said “yeah idk rn, sorry” I just said “okay don’t apologize for something you don’t want” then he said “yeah I know I still feel bad ya know” I just accepted what’s happening and that’s how this all ended pretty much. Still feeling horrible tbh