when does it stop hurting

one day overnight he just completely changed, ghosted me for a month saying he was going through stuff. i was patient, didn’t pressure him and just checked in sometimes, i felt so lonely and cried all the time because of how much i missed him. after a while i saw he was hanging out with everyone in his life except me, i eventually broke and that’s when he told me he thinks he might be gay. it made zero sense to me, i could think he was bi but gay?… it changed everything that i had lived with him, was all of it fake? did he ever even care? or love me at all? all the intimate stuff felt so fake all of a sudden. i sent a last message ending things, telling him id leave him alone. and that i was sorry and i loved him and was grateful. im moving countries soon, to where he is so it hurt a lot more. he never responded, not a single thing to let me know that he was at least grateful to me or that he did love me in the slightest. after a month of ghosting i got one message saying that and then nothing. it’s been a week and it feels like im the only one hurting. i miss him so much. everyday i can’t stop crying and thinking about him.