Addiction.

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Leaving a relationship, even when you know it’s the right decision, can be incredibly painful. Grieving the loss of the future you imagined is completely normal, but please remember that you deserve to be with someone who is emotionally present and able to love you fully. Healing takes time, but every day you are moving toward a healthier and happier future. Be kind to yourself, lean on those who support you, and know that you are not alone in this. You are stronger than you realize.

It’s going to be tough but you just have to be strong and walk away. I’m in the same boat, the man I planned on spending my life with turned out to be an alcoholic and a sex addict, it stripped away all my sense of safety and stability. I gave it a good two years but he could never stay sober/faithful for more than a couple months at a time. While we had so many good times and a really great plan for the future, I know I can’t live the rest of my life without safety and stability. Love and affection and connection feel good, but the lies and the hurt we’re eating away at my well being. I read a quote that if you stay in a relationship that’s not meant for you, you will keep getting hurt until you have to let go or it destroys you. It’s best to get out now, don’t settle for a little bit of good, find someone who can love you right.