i cant
Hey, I can't cope. he broke up with me 41 days ago and day by day it's getting worse, I swear. there are better and worse days, but for the last few days it's come to me that maybe it's actually the end and it tears me apart from the inside. he broke up with me because he lost feelings, but a few times right after the breakup he wrote to me to try again, but after a few days he thought about it. we met once, two weeks after the breakup and everything was fine, but then he said that he had mixed feelings after that meeting and to give him time. a week after that I wrote to him what's next and he wrote to me that he feels completely burned out and doesn't want to hurt me. we have no contact since then and I can't cope. I really wanted to fix it and make it like it used to be. Our relationship was not perfect, especially at the end because it changed and I felt bad then, but still I think that if we tried it we would be able to fix it. I love him so much and I can't go on I just wait for him all the time. I have a birthday in a week and I'm terribly afraid of that day, we had our first kiss. What can I do? Nothing helps me because I really think it could be fixed. after a week he added girls on Instagram and with one of them it is very possible that he talks. it hurts me a lot because I can't even imagine myself with anyone else. I've been to a psychologist twice, but so far I can't afford more visits. I just can't cope and I don't know what I can do?😭😭😭